I called this blog 'A Shout in the Dark' for a number of reasons.
The first being, quite simply, that I love puns. The second being - less simply, perhaps - that I feel that any venture on the vast and shadowy terrain of the internet feels a bit like speaking into an unknown and unknowable void, and that's often how I imagine it must be for people who are terrified of public speaking to take their first step onto the stage. Even as the spotlight shines upon them, and the faces turn in their direction, the light shrinks away and the faces, while still present, turn shadowy and menacing. Or perhaps I'm projecting. That was how it often felt for me, at least, when I started out in drama school, and began my venture into the world of acting, joining the audition circuit like so many other hopefuls.
The final reason I chose it, is that I thought the title went nicely with my picture of the looming lighthouse at Dun Laoighaire, and its intermittent beam. There's something in the suspended pause between each burst of light, something that catches the breath; both with a terror of the darkness it leaves you with, and a longing for the promise of light. As a child, I used to watch the lighthouse at night from my window on violent nights, wondering who also sought its beam on its swing around the tower, and how they felt when it was turned away from them, and shining for me.
There are times when we seek out the spotlight, and other times when the spotlight finds us, and in each case we ought to try and arm ourselves as best we can to avoid being blinded.
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RM Clarke is a writer and voice-over artist. She has written for various literary mags and anthologies and won awards. She has put her voice to most things she can think of.